T H E S E L F S T U D Y
SEARCHING FOR THE BROKEN THE SELF PROJECT
LOOKING FOR PERSONAL IDENTITY AND „WHO AM I“ IN 10 PARTS
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Project „Searching For The Broken The Self“ is returning back to the earlier stages of personal development (Psychosocial Theory Erikson´s Model stages 1-5, Erikson 1963) and explores how the incomplete-incorrect-pathological course of these stages influences our further life and searching for „the self“ and identity. This project further continues in my own „the self study“ which began with the project Maternal Exile (2015-2020, Personal Diary, Self-Documentary). Project „Searching For The Broken The Self“ describes how I have started to look/search for myself and identity after I recognized how my pathological childhood and prenatal period have influenced my whole life, including the absence of finding identity and „who I am“ during adolescence (Erikson´s stage 5 of psychosocial development). I also confront in the project the term „badly born children“ and open the task whether even „badly born“ child has a chance to live happily ever after. For this Project, I returned once again to my hometown to take pictures of melting ice on water dam with its structure which represents something broken in the past, but with the structure of the past growing in the personality into the present. The Project will be a part of the unpublished essay for my study of „Therapeutic Photography“ postgradual program at Robert Gordon University in Scotland.
More from the Project here:
The Self Is Influenced By So Many "White Balls" Around, In The Present, From The Past. And These "White Balls" Are Family, Peers, School, Society, Media, Culture, Politics, Changes In Time ... (Bronfenbrenner´s Socioecological Model, Bronfenbrenner 1986, 1992, 2009). Each Of Us Can Describe Our Personal "White Balls". With Some "White Balls" You Are Connected Right Here And Now, With Some Of Them Not, But You Can Feel Their Presence Still. The Connections Are Under Fluent Change And Development, Permanently Influencing The Equation The Self Versus "Other".
The Self Study | X-Ray Of The Self | 2021. In the times when the humankind is balancing between "perfect Instagram beauty" which is a kind of virtual reality and the times when we get the knowledge that our personal reality is totally mind-made (Chopra 2019) the appearance of physical body is questionable, rather the X-ray of the consciousness become to foreground.
"No matter how many white balls form the individual the self and the whole world — the existence, the consciousness, the strongest law and the driving energy of everything is — LOVE. The whole universe and existence is built on the power of love. And maybe love is also the cause and at the same time the result of all the equations of infinity unknown that form the self."
The Self As The Puppet In Universe Who Is Controlled By Less And More Familiar And By Unknown Circumstances | 2022 | What we really know about the universe which we all are a part of? When you look in the mirror, is the reflection of your face and body real or is it only an illusion? Is it possible that your the self is an immortal fluid illusion whose existence is not limited to the line birth — death? This photograph likens a human to a puppet whose existence in universe is randomly and less randomly controlled by less and more familiar and by unknown circumstances. Maybe the self is like a bird floating among particles. Far closer to the truth is the view that we are conscious agents whose potential for creativity and change is unlimited. But I think that the whole discourse has been open.
"How I was wandering through the Czech mountains and nature to keep my the self in a peaceful and calm discourse with today´s society and also to search for my the self in relation to other "around" and "before", others, and the ghosts of unconscious un-memories, I met the skin of a snake which how it was lying on the ground in the shape of a smile remained me how the universe is dumbly-quietly-patiently-whisperingly-loudly trying to be friendly to mankind, giving new and new chances to "undress the skin" every new moment of the existence. It reminded me that the universe and nature act always with peace, generosity and humility. That´s the natural beauty of living — your the self is given infinite number of chances to born again and again."
THE SELF AS A PART OF THE UNIVERSE
THE SELF AND THE UNDEFINED „OTHER“ — WE ARE ALL ENERGY BEINGS
„When Searching For „The Self“, Quantum Physics Laws Have To Be Included In The Research — We Are All Energy Beings Whose Energy Is To Some Extent Shared. Everything Is Energy, Including Words, Vibrations Of Thoughts And Emotions, Still Moving And Creating New Energetic Journeys And Creating Energy Landscapes.“
"Swimmers" | Self-Portrait Series | Self Study | Swimmer No. 10 Straight Line on an Inclined Surface
“I find some kind of peace and meditation in water calm, water brings me unconditional acceptance and safety, the place where I can breathe freely. I think that these self-portraits are a kind of leak of myself from all the other which influences my “the self” – from the past, the present, the society.”