Final thoughts of the last moments of a woman who decided to commit suicide. She sees the man she loved, but he did not ever love her, she sees herself as a seamless child. I tried to capture the moment when her ideas are no longer dark, but quiet at the moment she feels that pain would be gone. She sees the love of her life and herself when she was a happy little girl untouched by bitter life experiences. I chose colors that evoke calm, although the idea of the painting is sad and dark. But the calm is only apparent, complicated by the black fact of coming death and bad ending. I wanted to play with seemingly contradictory – suicide-calm, death – calm colors, classical painting-a little bit cartoon character of a small girl.